I've sold another of my tarantulas, this one my very first. I'm sitting here crying into my coffee, talking myself through it. It needs to happen, it's part of my choices and the direction I mean to take my life. But it doesn't stop the pain of parting with a little living thing for which I've cared since it was tiny, these past five years.
My classmate purchased my Thor, the second tarantula she picks up from me. At least my Thorling is going to someone I know and am certain will care for them properly. It still hurts me badly but it needs to happen... Cheers...
Tuesday, September 16, 2014
My mother says the mackinaw makes me look like a hillbilly but it's fun to wear it around. I'm feeling less feminine lately and wanting to wear rougher outfits and it works well with that.
Sunday, September 14, 2014
The post title says it, this sweater belonged to my grandfather. With the cool weather now descended, I just wanted to wear something snuggly and warm and this fit the bill perfectly. I chose my eyeshadow colours to mirror the colours in the pattern.
I spent a few days this past week visiting my man. Unfortunately the power went out during a storm and two out of my three days there was without electricity, but thankfully he had a generator so things were mostly unchanged.
Thursday, September 4, 2014
Don't have much to say today. I miss mon homme and life's stresses are weighing on me. This top is fast becoming a new favourite, picked up at Value Village a few weeks ago.
I know I'll look back at this time in my life and be glad of it, but at the moment I just want it to be done and passed. Thinking about my life, the dreams I wish for it, I think big changes are coming again. Cheers...
Wednesday, September 3, 2014
I just spent a magical 24 hours with an amazing man and I couldn't be happier... except maybe if he were still here! We went swimming, I made us a delicious dinner which we ate by candlelight (ah the romance of a power outage) and just thoroughly enjoyed each other's company.
It was a small window in a busy time for him and I feel special that he took the time and made the effort to come be with me for a while. We're hoping for another visit in two weeks or so and I really look forward to it. This feels different than any other relationship or dating has been for me. Maybe I've got something really special here... I think I may.
I think the only one happy about his leaving was my cat... jealous kitty is jealous. I'm still hesitant because this all feels too good to be true... but maybe it's finally my time to have this. I'm enjoying it while I can. Cheers!
Friday, August 29, 2014
The weather is fluctuating from mad hot days to cool ones like today. I've taken this chance to wear my vintage skirt, which is just too long and thick for really hot days. Finally having access to all my clothes after two and a half months feels almost like having a whole new wardrobe.