The Last Time

I sold another of my pets today, this time Rorschach my male spider-morph ball python. He's been mine for almost 5 years now. I had another big cry this afternoon, like I did selling my tarantula. The emotional tole this is taking on me is almost more than I can bare with everything else going on in my life right now.

My van suddenly decided to stall and then refused to start back up today. So now it's sitting in my parents' driveway and I have to get it towed to a garage to find out what's wrong. Fingers crossed it doesn't cost me an arm and a leg...

I really don't have the energy to deal with car troubles right now, on top of my student loan problems and classes starting next week, and moving and trying to find a home for the rest of my pets... When it rains it pours... Cheers...

Bonne Fête

I baked a gateau moka for my mother's birthday again this year. This was a mother's day cake the first time I baked it for her, and she's asked for it every time a cake occasion arises since. I was very happy with how this came out for once, which is rare for me. I'm a terrible perfectionist!

This just tastes so good with its coffee butter cream, coffee-syrup soaked genoise cake, toasted almonds and chocolate covered coffee beans.Cheers!

Goodbye Sweet One

I've sold another of my tarantulas, this one my very first. I'm sitting here crying into my coffee, talking myself through it. It needs to happen, it's part of my choices and the direction I mean to take my life. But it doesn't stop the pain of parting with a little living thing for which I've cared since it was tiny, these past five years.


My classmate purchased my Thor, the second tarantula she picks up from me. At least my Thorling is going to someone I know and am certain will care for them properly. It still hurts me badly but it needs to happen... Cheers...

Mackinaw

My mother says the mackinaw makes me look like a hillbilly but it's fun to wear it around. I'm feeling less feminine lately and wanting to wear rougher outfits and it works well with that.

I'm also stubbornly doing this socks and sandals thing until it's kinda ridiculous, because I can. My birks are just so comfy. Cheers!

Grandpa Sweater

The post title says it, this sweater belonged to my grandfather. With the cool weather now descended, I just wanted to wear something snuggly and warm and this fit the bill perfectly. I chose my eyeshadow colours to mirror the colours in the pattern.

I'm slowly learning to style my hair, finally managed to get it to stay off the back shaved part of my head. Now the hair is tickling at my ear and I'm wondering whether or not to trim it down again. I'm still thinking of letting it grow out and then shaving the side down again once the back has grown back in. We'll see. Cheers!

Here We Are

I spent a few days this past week visiting my man. Unfortunately the power went out during a storm and two out of my three days there was without electricity, but thankfully he had a generator so things were mostly unchanged.

For the most part, the weather was rainy but there were moments of sunshine. The wood stove and my honey's hard work kept us warm in the chill weather. Our evenings were romantically lit by candles, and I even cooked one supper right on top of the wood stove. (Wild rice, roasted veggies in butter and some rainbow trout mmm!)

 

He's considerably older than myself but I don't mind. I'm usually the one trying to keep up with him. Seems all I needed to do was stop looking for a mate to have my ideal one land right in my lap. A lot of changes are happening in my life, but it's bringing much good to me, and I am happy. Cheers!

Dark Giraffe

Don't have much to say today. I miss mon homme and life's stresses are weighing on me. This top is fast becoming a new favourite, picked up at Value Village a few weeks ago.

I seem to be going back and forth between bursting with bright colours and camouflaging myself in earth tones and greens. I just always loved how wearing green brings out that colour in my eyes.

 

I know I'll look back at this time in my life and be glad of it, but at the moment I just want it to be done and passed. Thinking about my life, the dreams I wish for it, I think big changes are coming again. Cheers...

Love Blowing In

I just spent a magical 24 hours with an amazing man and I couldn't be happier... except maybe if he were still here! We went swimming, I made us a delicious dinner which we ate by candlelight (ah the romance of a power outage) and just thoroughly enjoyed each other's company.

 

It was a small window in a busy time for him and I feel special that he took the time and made the effort to come be with me for a while. We're hoping for another visit in two weeks or so and I really look forward to it. This feels different than any other relationship or dating has been for me. Maybe I've got something really special here... I think I may.  

I think the only one happy about his leaving was my cat... jealous kitty is jealous. I'm still hesitant because this all feels too good to be true... but maybe it's finally my time to have this. I'm enjoying it while I can. Cheers!