Unfortunate

Well I had no idea this whole one-side-shaved cut was a 'thing' right now. I just felt like shaving my head. I am now accidentally trendy and hipster-like. Sigh. It's like that year where looking like a hippy was popular and I just blended right in. Unfortunate!

Regardless I still really like the new cut and I'm going to be keeping it like this for the foreseeable future. My parents were more receptive to it than I'd expected but I still have to break it to my grandmother

I'm just lousy at that whole conservative thing. Why conform? It's sad and boring. Meanwhile this new cut makes me feel like a spiffy sci-fi character, or a viking shield maiden! Cheers!

Twinkle

The outfits I wear with my two pairs of glasses differ drastically. When it's this pair, I tend to work with dark and earthy colours. The other pair, bright colours. I actually dreaded going back to wearing glasses again but this is fun.

My mother and I went out for another dog walk in the sunshine on Saturday. When it's cloudy out winter can be really gloomy and bland, but when the sun shines... It's so heart-achingly beautiful.

It's amazing how different the same place can look, depending on the sun and the clouds and the season. The last photo is one I took several hours after the others, when the sun was setting and more clouds had moved in. I expect there will be many more photos of this little bay in the year to come. Cheers!

Velvet Green

I bought this vintage green velvet jacket while I was in Paris. I love it. So of course I find every excuse and a half to break it out... like a Monday. Because what else can make a Monday that much better than a green velvet vintage jacket? Nothing...

Except maybe a sparkly lizard broach! Cheers!

Sunday Sunshine Dog Walk

I went to my parents' for Sunday brunch, and it was such a gorgeous day that my mother and I went for an extended dog walk with Scamp. Lake Nipissing has been frozen long enough that we can walk out on it no problem, and Scampy likes following the snowmobile trails.

Spoiled pooch got carried back to shore when he decided his little paws were momentarily cold. I think he just pretends so he can be carried, because he was perfectly fine with continuing our walk once my mother put him down again.

We finally made our way back to their little cabin home, and played an epic game of Scrabble. We both used all our tiles and finished with hearty scores! Definitely a nice Sunday. Cheers!

Winter Quiet

I'm not a fan of winter, but I can't deny its harsh beauty, especially in the deep country. There's just something about that quiet hush, when everything is covered in a thick layer of snow. It's like the world is sleeping, and my soul calms itself a little. The only sounds are the snow crunching under my feet and the occasional muffled whump when a branch sheds itself of a snowy burden somewhere in the thick of the forest.

Winter just makes me yearn for a log cabin somewhere deep in the woods. Someplace I can tuck away during the snowy months, and enjoy peace and rest. Someday I hope to achieve something like that, even if it has to be by myself. At the age of twenty five now, it's painfully obvious to me that I'm the odd one. Not ever having a serious relationship as an adult weighs on me at times, but I'm resigned to it now.

I'm at a point in my life where it feels like I'm not ever going to have a real adult relationship. While I know that pretty much anybody who goes a while without a loving partner follows this train of thought at some time or other, I really believe it. I don't know how to do it.  I'm not even very good at friendships, to be honest, so the idea of somehow managing to find, build and maintain a romantic loving relationship just seems completely impossible to me. I'm sailing the sea of life alone, but I've always been independent from lack of any other option. This in turn created a cycle of individual existence from which I can't break free. I'm out of strength to fight the current, and I'm just going to be swept out with the tide. But that's alright... the lonely open ocean doesn't frighten me.